Around 180

Those important milestones in our lifes that turns them around for 180. They make a permament cut into our souls and we remember it for the rest of our lifes. Something similar happened to me two weeks ago. A hand that carved it was not human. As now I am certain of it, and I have no reason to question the existence of it anymore. I finally have the power to be a free man.


Winter holidays


Filled with shiny lights and decorations, even at winter days my city exude warmth. There is something special about it, when you walk through the streets just before Christmas, and you see, at least for the moment, happy and fulfilled faces out-top those cold and unsatisfied. Even if the reason of their smile are presents that they just bought, and now they dream how they will wrap them at home, give them to their closest ones and make smile on their faces as well. In fact, rarely is a reason so beautiful…

Yesterday day I spent mostly searching for right presents, walking through half the city. I bought them, but they aren’t quite what I had in mind. It’s getting challenging to find something useful and not spend small fortune on it. Nevertheless, they are filled with love. And I couldn’t resist, so in the evening I took a walk with my camera, and forever frozen some moments on those shiny streets.

Oh, and all the grumpy faces my eye caught here and now? This part of the year is a living nightmare for lonely souls, because it seems that everyone around them are ideal, happy etc., and they are the black sheep among good. But lets not forget – no one can hurt you if you don’t allow it. Will you allow it?


I was riding my bike on a peaceful off-road path that is usually empty, but since today was beautiful sunny Sunday, it was quite busy with people, and every now and then somebody had to make path for the cyclists.

While passing some older couple, obviously irritated…
Wife: -“It is very busy here.” (looking at me)
Husband: -“Yeah, motherfuckers…”

I laughed inside myself, as I was thinking practically the same thing. Well, you are part of the crowd, too.

Losing a loved one

It feels like a bad dream. It wasn’t sudden, but it wasn’t expected neither. I caught myself thinking how I should visit you, because I haven’t seen you for days. Then something strikes my thoughts, the feeling that something’s not right. And I remember… You’re gone. I will never see you again. Today I found out it could’ve been avoided, but someone just didn’t care. Someone pretending to be human being specialized in saving lives…

But then, who knows why it happened… You are saved now from this world and its unfairness. I will always carry you in my heart, remembering your smile…


When I was a kid, there was this ideal I tried to stick to, a dream to follow – a perfect life: how I want my life to be, and what I don’t want in it to be. I dropped all the bad and negative things, and left only things that are making me happy.

And writing on my blog is making me happy 🙂


Hello world…

…that’s how I start almost any new project. Oh, but I wish it was that easy… I suck at intros, badly. I really don’t know what to write for an introduction. My english is terrible. And it  wouldn’t be appropriate to write too much for my first post, something like why I am writing anway, so I’ll just post some basics about me: 21 years old, male. Ambitious which makes it hard to find some time for writing the blog. A bit lazy which changes >>hard<< , from previous sentence, to >>almost impossible<< (procrastination is what bothers me, google it). A dreamer with big plans, that are often left for tommorow (that never comes). I like photography a lot, although the only thing I possess is a compact camera.  But there is some joy in taking a beautiful picture with minimum equipment. Hmm, what else…? I think this will do for now.

In my next post I will explain why I created this blog.